My deep dark secret

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When I committed the shameful act years ago I immediately swore to myself that I would never tell a soul what I had done. I buried it and tried to forget it. But over the years the secret has weighed on me. It got to the point that I was unable to focus on other things. I was in a constant bad mood. And every time I remembered why I was in a bad mood that feeling of dread would engulf me. I had to confess. But when? How much longer could I hold off? And then I listened to a recent episode of Armchair Expert.

Host Dax Shepard was 16 years sober when he recently started abusing pain medication. In the episode, Shepard confessed to his audience about the lies he was telling his loved ones for months. Like me, he was living with a deep, dark secret.

And Shepherd had a message for his listeners:. I felt like he was talking to me.

I could not go on living with this secret. Like, immediately. First I told my husband. I also knew that once I told him, I would have to then confess to my friend Amy, the person I had wronged all those years ago. Saying the thing out loud, even to my husband, was extremely difficult.

First I told him I was struggling with something, and then I started to cry. Of course this worried him. I wish there was a better way of confessing so as not to panic Sam, but speaking the truth out loud to another person made my secret no longer a secret. I was terrified of the consequences. I waited until the next day to call Amy. I was already crying so I did the same thing I did with Sam and prefaced it by saying nothing was wrong.

She asked if SHE had done something wrong. I stole it.

Over the years I probably stole one or two pills from you like 20 times. And there it was. My gross, scumbag secret. On a scale of 1 to 10 - 1 being Amy hangs up the phone and never speaks to me again, 10 being Amy is the most understanding and loving human being on the planet - Amy reacted with an The moral of this story is that when you surround yourself with people who lift you up, who encourage personal growth, who see your faults and love you anyway - you can find the courage to be honest and forthcoming because you will feel safe.

Admitting I had done something wrong was scary, but lying to my loved ones felt impossible.

By surrounding myself with people like Sam and Amy I want to be a better person every day. So find your people. Admit your wrongs. And free yourself from the weight of deep, dark secrets. A Deep, Dark Secret. Oct 6 Written By Charlie Bleecker. I did it. I finally confessed my deep, dark secret. I laughed guiltily. As if. Charlie Bleecker.

My deep dark secret

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